The Cozy Cottage Witch

2009 survey thing kidnapped from Nikky!

2010-01-01T02:39:01Z

1. What did you do in 2009 that you'd never done before?
For one, I ate a lot of new things that I never would've tried had I not become a cook (octopus, chicken and dumpling soup, pork gravy ice cream. YES, pork gravy ice cream. YES, REALLY. Someone made that at work xD). I moved in with a guy, which I've never done ever. I went to a work Xmas party. I moved out of my first apartment, worked at a bar, served, and cooked as a job for the first time. Got a stomach infection. Watched Sealab 2021 and Babylon 5. Went to a psychiatrist. Felt really, really catty and violent toward another woman for real. Did it without a condom (I'm still on the pill though)....(- . -);;;;;
I'm sure there's tons more I can't think of right now.

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I kept some of them, and I always make resolutions every year!

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
No one close close to me, but some people I know did have behbehs.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
My little sister's dog died. :( I'll miss you forever, Little Man! You were the sweetest dog ever. I didn't cry on the phone with her when she told me, but I'm totes weeping now. :( He was a good boy!!!! (and my secret favorite)

5. What countries did you visit?
LOL as if I left the country. But I'm semi-bummed about this. But not really, because it's hella expensive.

6. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
A $1000 emergency fund in a money market account gaining interest like nobody's business, all my debts paid off, my wisdom teeth out, and the start of my retirement fund in an IRA. Hey, if you're gonna plan, PLAN. Also, a self-sustaining farm complete with crops, a milk-cow, and some chickens. Also, alpacas and bunnies. :3 Oh, and definitely at least some time invested in culinary school.

7. What date from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
January 2, 2009: the day that I decided it was Christopher that I loved. Because I had been in a bad relationship for a solid four years and had been waiting to find some reason to get out of it because I felt trapped, and then as if answering a prayer, he was placed there for me. I love him so much. :))

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Figuring out what the hell to do with my life and stumbling upon my New Life Philosophy.

9. What was your biggest failure?
Not getting out of my old relationship sooner.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
I got the flu A LOT at the beginning of the year, and I got sick some over the summer, and this winter has been not-so-kind to me. I also had a nasty stomach infection that caused me to think I was gluten intolerant for like a year, which sucked. I also sprained my ankle around May and had to walk with a brace and a cane for a week.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
The books I ordered online. :D

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
This is a weird question. But I would say Josh for being a saint and putting up with WAAAY more bullshit from people who are supposed to be his friends than he has ever deserved ever. I would like to just say that Josh is awesome and a really nice guy and is gonna find some incredibly sexy Betty Crocker woman to take care of him someday so he doesn't have to worry about things like that; because he takes care of everyone else, and I really think he deserves someone nice to take care of him for a change.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Hmm....this is delicate. My aunt Diane for being a child at 50 and not growing up and continuing to take money from my grandfather - you suck at life.
The guy that showed Jessica his pee-pee while she was in Japan - that is just not acceptable at all...didn't your mother ever tell you that?!
A certain someone who shall remain nameless for hurting Alyne by fucking her old boyfriends, making unwanted sexual advances on Josh, and generally just being kind of skanky and getting everyone involved in her drama, not to mention borrowing lots of money I'm pretty sure she has no intention of paying back....no names.
That homeless guy who came in begging for food last week: I was going to give you food, and then you acted snooty about what I had to offer you not being something you liked. Hi, I'm not supposed to even give you anything, but I'm a little more soft-hearted than that and wanted to help another person get by, especially since it was so cold outside. If you're really so hungry that you're begging, why be picky? That's just sad, and I felt really sorry for you. I hope whatever it is that's so bad in your life gets better.
Lilly, for being completely insensitive to anyone's feelings other than her brother's. You really hurt my feelings this year, and I never want to talk to you again, because you both just make me so incredibly mad.

14. Where did most of your money go?
Paying off old debts and buying groceries and paying insurance and medical bills.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Seeing Jessica for the first time in a year, even though that time ended up being cut short. And xmas, for once. But mostly, Jessica.

16. What song will always remind you of 2009?
Oddly enough, probably Corn Rigs, the opening theme of the Wicker Man, since this year was the first time I saw it...? I know that's weird.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? much, MUCH happier.
ii. thinner or fatter? thinner, actually. :DD
iii. richer or poorer? richer, actually. This year I kind of got my finances straightened out. :D

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Working more on crafts and spending more time with my family, awkward as we all may be.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
bothering to talk to or text Lilly (which caused a LOT of stress for me.), worrying about anything really, being mean to myself, being depressed.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
Lol xmas is over, but I spent it with mine and Chris's families. It went well. :D

22. Did you fall in love in 2009?
Actually, yes. It was very storybookish at times. :3 He's like my own living fairy tale man at times.

23. How many one-night stands?
I don't believe in one-night stands.

24. What was your favorite TV program?
Babylon 5 is the greatest science fiction television program....ever. Yes, even better than TOS of Star Trek, which is surprising coming from me. Forgive me, Spock!!

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Actually, yes. Hate is a really negative emotion that I wish I didn't have, but a few people have moved into that category for me.

26. What was the best book you read?
THE MISTS OF AVALON, which is pretty much as perfect as any book could be, like, ever.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
All of the bands that Neil at work has exposed me to, but especially the Better Beatles, the Shags, and my brother's band, the Tim-tations.

28. What did you want and get?
A new place to live, and someone who would treat me better than my ex and actually love me, a new job, a promotion, and insurance.

29. What did you want and not get?
money to go to culinary school, a new(er) car, to go to X-Day

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
The Time Traveler's Wife. Nikky and I bawled like three year olds to that movie, but OMG IT WAS WONDERFUL!! T__T

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I had a for real birthday party with cake, friends, and decorations and everything, which I had never had before!!! And I was 22, turned 23. PS my party was Hello Kitty themed. :D

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Not being so depressed.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?
Fuck everything, I'm wearing what's comfy, also known as my acceptance of skirts and baggy blouses or tshirts, also the concept of cardigans being sexy...the librarian-hippy-chick-renaissance-gypsy look. Yay for minimal jewelry and no makeup!

34. What kept you sane?
Christopher, and my books.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
I'm not really one to develop celebrity crushes.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
this year, a woman's right to choice and equal rights for gays and pagans really hit me at home.

37. Who did you miss?
Jessica. T____T and my ancestors who have passed on.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
lol definitely either Neil, Chuck, or Pete, but Brooke and Chasity are awesome too. :3

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009:
Worrying does NOTHING.

Happy effing new year, livejournal-land!! I'll be at work instead of at the bangin' party I wanted to go to, so I hope everyone else gets to start off on a better foot than I do~!
I don't want to go to work tonight.

テンションぶっちぎり High!

2009-11-04T22:38:25Z

Today is Day 3 of being a cook instead of a server!!! It's so nice~<3

I really like my job, and so it is decided. I'm going to culinary school either in spring or in fall in Gulf Shores.

I'm eating a lot better since I decided again to go vegetarian plus fish. For awhile there I was eating really unhealthily...fried food, lots of meat. But I changed my habits and so now it's better. I've already lost 3 lbs since I started my job!!

I went to the doctor a few weeks ago and found out after all this time, I'm not allergic to wheat anymore. Or rather, I never was. I had been misdiagnosed.

Instead, they discovered an infected ulcer in my stomach. Doctor says it's from stress. She's probably right.
So, I was taking a lot of medication, like 2 grams of penicillin a day to get rid of this infection, and now I'm taking acid-reducing drugs to help my stomach repair itself so I can eat without getting sick anymore.

So, I have to do things to relax more too, like reading and going for walks and having tea and things like that. So I started cooking Japanese food again (it is my hobby). And now, I'm losing (more) weight and my stomach feels a lot better. I try to avoid hot, spicy, and acidic foods which I love so much, and instead try to eat more alkaline foods, like mushrooms and asparagus and salmon and things like that. Recently, I had Japanese kimchee sauce on my sushi for the first time, and I found out I can eat it!! Vinegar actually is the only really acidic thing I can eat and still be OK. But hot spicy food is out. Only mild curry for me from now on. :3

So tonight, I'm working, and then off for two days!! I wonder what I'll do with my free time? Maybe working out? I don't know...

I'm keeping this short. For now.

2009-10-02T16:30:25Z

I should be getting internet either this month or next month. Stay tuned for details. I'll mention it more when I know more.

Last night was my very first day as a sushi chef-in-training.
Finding out recently that I'm not deadly allergic to wheat, and therefore not a celiac, has made me consider this as a more viable career option (I had pretty much decided to go back to school to become a pastry chef right before I found out about my "allergy," which pretty much murdered my hopes I had there...D:).

Being a sushi chef in training is AWESOME. I cleaned and sliced the cucumbers for cucumber salad, and the head chef showed me how to dice, mince, and slice into large pieces a red onion (he used one onion for three different things) and how to season the cucumber salad (I actually didn't know we made this in-house! I thought it was commercially prepared...). I made a huge bowl of wasabi paste (the bowl was about the width of my shoulders) from wasabi powder and water, which pretty much cleaned out my sinuses for the conceivable future and made the kitchen in the back rather PUNGENT. I peeled about a pound and a half of shrimp in about 30 minutes (maybe 45? I started out really slow, but he showed me how to do it in about two moves). I prepped the 5-cut rolls (shorter rolls with more filling in which the entire roll is tempura-fried), made an entire pan of spring rolls, made tempura shrimp, took care of most of the tempura-ing that happened the first half of the night (it's really easy). I made tempura batter, watched the head chef make rice and season the rice.

He showed me how to cut the fish for each roll, which cuts of fish are used for what, and proper rolling technique from rice on the nori to filling placement, to how to roll tightly and how to top the roll with garnish (if it has a cut of meat on the outside, for instance, or if it's topped with vegetables.) How to plate the food, what size of plates have what amount of sushi on them, how to make a sashimi rose (WHICH IS BEAUTIFUL, MIGHT I ADD). How to make a wasabi leaf, how to make a lovely cucumber garnish for your sashimi rose....what else?

The first roll I really got to make was after Bo came in (he's another chef there), and it was the serpent, which is easy on the filling, but harder on the outside, since there's a leaf of smoked salmon that sits on top of the roll. Bo cut it, but he let me roll it and top it with unagi sauce and panko. :D I got sauce on the station....D:

I got to watch Bo make tuna tataki (lightly seared tuna coated in black and white sesame seeds), which is actually pretty easy, and probably the most fun thing I did all night was to separate the orange flesh (after it was peeled) from the pith. This part of the orange, the yummy, fleshy part, has a name, but I can't remember it at all right now (which sucks, I tried to remember it all last night and it came to me right as I was falling asleep, and so I didn't write it down, and I've looked online forever and can't seem to find the term at all. It's French, I know that much).

Also, the head chef taught me about "mise en place," which means having everything in its place and being prepared to make anything you'll need for your shift.

But so after last night, my dream of going to cooking school was revived at full force. I don't want to be too hasty about it or go crazy here, but if I get the same kind of excitement out of my next few chef-in-training shifts, I'm definitely considering going to culinary school.

Sadly, the closest (decent) one is in Gulf Shores, which is a little over an hour away. But then again, I drove about an hour every day to work for a year and a half before I moved out of my mom's house, so I think I can do this. It'll be expensive (though not as expensive as regular university), but it's only a two year program to have my associate's in applied arts & sciences (AAS) in culinary arts.

Needless to say, I'm pretty pumped up. (lol)

It's been a while since last we met!

2009-06-14T20:03:37Z

I am in love love with this dress. Oh, dearest Victorian Maiden, why do you not ship overseas?
But I digress.

It has been quite a while since I last posted, and for that I apologize. You see, I'm in the middle of quite a few very time-consuming things, and I want nothing more than to have free time to do as I please, but for the time being that will have to wait.

Life Changes:
~ I am currently in the process of moving out of my apartment I shared with my lovely roommate and into the enchanting little cottage by the bay with my darling and wonderful boyfriend. He and I will be celebrating our six month anniversary in less than three weeks!
~ The lovely little cafe where I worked for nearly a year and a half sadly went out of business and I have had to find work elsewhere. I am currently waitressing at a joint-business venture downtown that is a bar and tacqueria on one side and a posh sushi lounge on the other. There is a lovely little porch out front where one can sit and eat, but the weather here is much too humid for that sort of thing lately.
~ Boyfriend is helping me to follow a strict budget so that I may pay off my school debts, finish paying off my rent, and begin purchasing both things I want and need. Some things that will be coming my way soon are such gems as medical and dental insurance, new glasses, new clothes (I am now down to a weight that I have not been since I was seventeen! I am quite excited!!), and perhaps even some pretty lolita-styled dresses and skirts? I really want some of the more classically styled outfits.
~ I'm saving up to go back to school next fall and study both math and secondary education. I've given it quite a lot of thought, and have decided that this is what I want.

So, that is what has been going on with me. In addition to this, I have also become a staff member of the local sci-fi/fantasy convention, MOBICON. Currently, I am serving on the entertainment, promotions, and registration committees. However, this seems as though it will take up too much of my free time, so I may drop at least one committee, but I know I will remain on staff this year. This is very undecided for me so far.

Chris's sister Connie has, for the most part (she still has some resin figures left), moved out of the house, which means I can finally move the rest of my things in! We are currently turning her old bedroom into the computer room / library / craft room. This has become a source of relaxtion for me, since before, I felt very stressed out, having my things in two places and not always being able to get to my things when I needed to. Now, I can work on making our home more organized and more presentable.

Chris and I are becoming much closer with each passing day. Things between us are going rather well.

I really would like to catch up on my reading, but cannot seem to find the time. Time for me lately has been either flitting past at lightning speed or lazily rolling by. There is no happy medium.

I have been slightly ill since yesterday afternoon. I think I may have a stomach virus. Thankfully, the worst of this seems to have passed.

I spent the night at mum and dad's last night. It's good to be back around them. I've missed my mother dearly. I would like for her and I to spend more time together, just the two of us. I think I will arrrange for us to visit Spot of Tea in town one day next week, perhaps as a surprise!

I apologize for the sparseness of my entries as of late. This should be remedied somewhat soon. Perhaps not as soon as one would like, but that is how it must be for now. Please, friends, know that I miss you all dearly, and even though I have not been commenting on your entries, I do still read them and you are all in my thoughts daily.

Lovely thoughts,
~Amanda

BANANA FACE. and kiwi soda pop in love

2009-05-09T16:24:58Z

I want banana chips so bad right now.

Chris and I got a food dehydrator!! It's very cute - white and brown, and STILL IN THE BOX!! We got it for free off of this website called freecycle where people go to post about stuff they don't want anymore and give it away. But this lady gave it to us saying she got it eight years ago as a wedding present and never used it, lol. So now I can make fruit chips to take to work!! :DD

I learned the other day that my absolute favorite in AKB48's Team A, Oshima Mai, has graduated from AKB48. T^T SAD DAY. Who will I love now?! Nakanishi-san and now Oshima-san are gone~~~!! *mournful* ~~I guess it's finally time to turn to Team K~~ Nevermind, Team A still has Kojiharu and the rest of no3b....:( But nonetheless, I'll miss you, Maimai~! Good luck in your new pursuits!! I wish you all the best!! *cry*

I found this book @ the library book sale that was recommended to me by the internet called Color me Beautiful by Carole Jackson. It's old, okay?! But so I'm learning all about color seasons and skin tone and things like that, and come to find out I'm a summer, not a spring like the lady @ the cosmetics counter told me. It's like she couldn't have been more off!! I thought my makeup looked kind off funny on me back then, but now I know why!! I don't have a warm skin tone at all~!! And my hair is definitely ash brown, not warm brown @ all. But that's mostly due to the dyed part of my hair finally growing out and getting it all cut off (my hair is shoulder-length now...:I )
So apparently, pastels really flatter me the best, and soft white and purples and blue-reds (instead of orangey reds) are for me. I've always thought I looked kind of washed out but could never really figure out why...now I feel so strange for not realizing it sooner, but at the same time am HAPPY~~ that I can finally go shopping again. GOSH.

Saw the new Star Trek movie with the movie night gang on Thursday night @ the advance showing. It was WIN!@fanservice, but overall, I think I only liked it maybe 70% instead of a full ヒャクパ. The actors really impressed me (being an original series fangirl, I was really expecting bottom of the barrel, I'll be honest) with their performance, and the storyline really surprised me, but overall, I found it depressing since they basically rebooted the whole damn series. Sadの日々~ I'm not sure non-fans will even get the movie at all, since there were quite a few references to the series, and if you've never seen it, I doubt most of the movie will even make any sense at all.

Today's mission: new color scheme for journal, new profile layout.

matchan @ 2009-03-05T13:18:00

2009-03-05T19:18:40Z

Also: 10,000 B.C. is one of the stupidest movies I've ever seen.

ATTN HOLLYWOOD: CAVEMEN =/= SRS BZNS.
Needed moar raptor-ostriches and cool humans getting pwnt by nature scenes.

On a scale of 1 to FAIL, I give it about a 9.85.

Streamed-Ode Consciousness

2009-03-05T19:07:03Z

I could listen to this song for hours, literally. I never feel that way about songs.

Lately, I've been on a bit of a burnout from all the music I usually listen to (which is to say, Jpop and Alt. Rock). All I want to hear is something really unique and rad; I don't care what the language is.

So, friendslist. Want to help me out? Recommend a song to me by posting an mp3, please? Whatever you think I'd like, really. I trust your judgement.
I see Luna do this all the time and even though I was bad and didn't give her one the other day, I have one for her now (lol) and I think it's a pretty swell idea.

I recently started taking this new birth control pill that's really weird. It's a different version of what I was on as a teenager to regulate ladythings, but instead of a gradually increasing dosage like most pills do, this one is full-on from day one, which is a nice way of saying my hormones are more out of whack than normal and so when I take them first thing in the AM I get really needy/weepy/depressed. It usually fades after a few hours, but the AMs are already really sad for me, so boo that.

So today is day one (after SIX!!) of me not being supermegahyperultradelicious!ill. I just have a bit of a cough and a slightly runny nose. Having Chris home and taking care of me/making sure I'm going to bed on time really helps (this past weekend, when I had the worst of it, was when he was at SOLAR, so I had to fend for me self.) So I felt like shit the past few days, whee.

I started reading V for Vendetta the other day and it is really SWEET. Not in the girly sense, either. Like the OH HAIL YAYES! kind of SWEET. But I left that in Chris' car today and so I'm continuing on Firestarter today, which is a rad book. GOD I REALLY MISSED READING LIKE WOAH. That's one of my goals lately - to read more books. Books are good. They're like brain food. DELICIOUS!

I have determined that I fucking hate hanging out with people. Like lately, I feel really obligated to hang out with people because I haven't seen any of them in a really long time, and what's fucked is I actually want to see them, I just don't want to go out and do things. So maybe it's not hanging out I hate, but going out I guess is more what I mean. Yeah. I hate going out with people. Maybe it's because recently like 15% of my friends have become not friends because they are tools or something I don't know. I'm just antisocialish lately. OH and it's expensive. Money is something I'm not very lax with right now. It's all spent, but it's spent on things like bills, which are importante.

My new drink lately has been these green tea frappes that we make with matcha powder. In mine though, I add coconut which makes them taste AMAJING.

So ever since yesterday, I've been feeling the sacred hate off and on, but not as much as I used to before I became a yetisyn (Details $1!). But basically, I just stare at this man's lovely face and I feel better. I've found that if you let yourself just feel the sacred hate and let it boil through you for a few seconds, it goes right away, and then you never think about it again (until it pisses you off again). Sounds crazy because it is crazy, folks.

So I'm doing a SubGenius panel with Chris this year at Mobicon, and I am hella excited for it. It will be rad. You should all prereg for Mobicon just to come to my panel. I can "Bob"-tize you. It'll be the mind-blowingest shockfest of ridiculous awesomosity ever, I assure you, friends. You will be amazerated and disgustified. You can even give me a dollar. I can buy beer with that. Wheat free beer!! I will also have a sweet Yeti Reverend name so I won't have to go by my Conspiracy name anymore!! \:D/ I am such an awesome nerd, fuck you.

Fuck you also, wheat. All I want today is cake, and I can't have it. I'm so baking a fucking cake this weekend. A gluten free one, bitches. So I won't die.

Dear Hippies,

2009-01-19T19:54:50Z

Dear Hippies:

Please do not tie your dog to my outdoor table.

And don't name your fucking dog after a movie.

You suck forevar.

Something I've learned... + New Year's Eve!!

2008-12-31T17:40:44Z

So, one thing I've learned in my quest for foods that I can eat because of my numerous ailments (pcos, celiac, lactose intolerance, for those of you not paying attention) is that almost any southeast Asian cuisine is completely OK for me to eat! :D There are some others I've found out about as well~!

That means, friends, if you'd like for us to go out to eat and you like Thai, Vietnamese, Malaysian, Cambodian, Laotian, Indonesian, Filipino, or Lebanese, Greek, and Turkish food, you are in luck! I can join you! It is also possible (although slightly more challenging) for me to eat Japanese, Chinese, or Indian cuisine.

Mexican and Spanish foods pose a problem for me due to the amount of cheese present in many restaurants here. Same goes for Italian foods, not to mention that pastas and breads are things that I cannot eat. Nearly all American food is impossible for me to eat, because gluten is used (and hidden!) in so much of our food! It's nearly impossible to go to an American restaurant and be able to escape things like bread, pasta, fried foods, soy or worcestershire sauce (both usually made with wheat), french fries (which are usually battered with wheat flour), cheese, and milk. Not to mention things like cake! o(T~T)o I can never eat cake in a restaurant again...*sigh*

So, friends, what are your plans for New Year's Eve? I'm going to the movie night crew's annual new year's eve gift giving jamboree, known better as WHAT'S IN THE BOX?! The gift I'm bringing is rather lulzy. I'd say what it is here, but one of the possible recipients might read it and spoil the surprise. I was gonna bring something different I ordered online, but it has failed to get here in time. DAMN YOU US POSTAL SERVICE!! So I had to get something at the Walton Market last night when I brought Josh to get black spiderman. But anyway, WITB?!...there will be drinking, oh yes. There will be.

And ladies and gentlemen, allow me to illustrate the place where I live for you for a moment. The inhabitants of my city will not be watching TV for the ball to drop in New York City tonight, oh no. Instead, they will be gathered downtown to watch the giant MOONPIE drop. And they've imported some baker to make a massive moonpie which they will be selling for $1 a piece, all to go to charity (which is good). But yes. I live in the city with the giant moon pie. Yay me. xD

Hope you all had a good holiday/completely normal Thursday, and that you're all enjoying the end of the year! I'll be posting some resolutions soon and I look forward to seeing everyone else's (since you on my flist usually do that. O_o; no expectations, just so you know)! HAPPY NEW YEAR'S EVE!! BE SAFE & HAVE FUN!! And let's all hope 2009 is waay better than 2008, lol!

Xmas Meme

2008-12-04T17:16:46Z

Dear Santa...

Dear Santa,

This year I've been busy!

Last Wednesday I had a shoot-out with rival gang lords on the 5 near LA (-76 points). In April I ruled Asscrackistan as a kind and benevolent dictator (700 points). Last Sunday I turned sero85 in for spitting (3 points). Last Tuesday I got in line at the supermarket at the same time as someone else and I didn't yield (-8 points). In March I gave change to a homeless guy (19 points).

Overall, I've been nice (638 points). For Christmas I deserve a Pony Slaystation 3!

Sincerely,
matchan

WOO!

2008-12-01T17:35:19Z

I took some of the bitching-est cold medicine this morning with breakfast, and let me tell you - I cannot function now. I'm at work and answering the phone like "He~~y thanks for calling? Yeah? Yeah? *writes message* GOT IT! Yea~~h! You have a greeeeat day!!! WOO!" and hanging up. Theraflu is the SHIT! And what's funny is I got ID'd to buy it yesterday. HAHA because I look like I'm sixteen apparently. But I'm 22. SAD DAY but HAPPY because I don't want to look older than I am. WOO!

See what I mean? And it's weird because my hands are like numb. Well, not numb but funny feeling and like everything I touch is all woogy. Making espresso like this is kind of hard because I'm all numby and I feel like I have a hand of nothing but thumbs and they don't want to work together.

I'm just scared my filter has gone away completely and if someone's mean to me I'll be like "OH YEAH?! WHUT?!" and like scream at them in a lacksidazical manner. I can't fucking beleive I spelled that correctly. Hoshit.

WOOO Happy December First!! YEAAH!
Oh god, that means xmas is here. NOOO!!! I'M NOT READY!!! T_T I hate holidays how they come up on you like all at once and bombard you and because you have like rent and stuff everyone gets xmas gifts in like May. BOO!!!!

OH I took cold medicine because after my hardcore thanksgiving illness, I now have a monstrous head cold. It's weird because I felt fine but was just congested until last night. And now I'm like almost hallucinating. I HATE this medicine BUT at least I can breathe~~! WOO!

new layout [winter 2008]

2008-11-28T09:37:09Z

matchan matchan matchan matchan matchan
New layout I just spent four hours editing.
Credit is on userinfo, which I just coded all by myself.
Please, please love it. I fought with this tooth and nail.

mission: crochet a circle - success!! (and some singing stuff~)

2008-11-19T20:46:34Z

WHY, YES. THAT IS A ROUND CROCHETED ITEM. YOU ARE CORRECT!

I did it~! I figured out how to crochet in the round, which means...
now I can do AMIGURUMI!!! They're so cute...and now I will be creating
them!!! MUAHAHAHAHAHA!!! (lol, seriously, I've been trying to learn and
giving up on the round for like...a millennium at least. Or maybe 7 years. Whatever.)

So, my friend Iiori came in today with his friend whose name I keep forgetting. Anyway, his friend is from Japan and studying English, so I tried to converse with him a lot today. Somehow, we ended up chatting about music and stuff and Iori made the comment that my friend Concon looks a lot like Angela Aki (photo comparison).

Also while we were chatting about music, Iori and I were speaking about the karaoke party I was supposed to go to this past Saturday (I couldn't go because of work, and then his internet was down so it didn't end up happening anyway). I've told him before I can do 物まね (monomane = impression) of 鬼塚ちひろ. Anyway, long and short of it is I end up showing him my soundclick, and he finds 月光, the song I was planning on doing at karaoke that night. He and his friend are listening in silence for the first 45 seconds or so of the song, then his friend breaks the silence with, "うまえ~!! (amazing~!!)"

Then, Iori's like, "Amanda, this is really, really good. A-grade! In Japan, you could be highest rated karaoke singer!" and he was really impressed. It was really, really, embarassing and I turned really, really bright red (I love compliments, but I feel so ashamed that I like them and so I get embarassed...). It was really cool to have them compliment me like that, so I think I can finally get out of my not-singing rut and begin recording again!!

I've been thinking of doing an 大塚愛 song lately. The ideas I had were: 水母、流れ星, HEART, or 恋愛写真. F-list, what do you think? Is there a certain song you've always wanted to hear me sing? Please let me know!! I've been working very hard lately to cultivate my voice and to sing more openly and from the heart. I bought this really good book called Set Your Voice Free (by Roger Love, in case you're wondering). It's a really, really useful tool. It came with this CD of warmups and so I've been practicing a lot lately and I really want to record, but I just get overwhelmed with songs, so please let me know what you think, f-list!!!

Anyway, I'm at work. We're pretty busy today actually. I haven't gotten a chance to sit down much at all.

Sorry for the sporadic updating lately. I just haven't had anything really exciting going on. Or rather, I have, I just haven't had the motivation to write about it. (^-o;;)

Kiss Cam = Fail.

2008-11-11T00:25:27Z

Today's blogging question: What are your top 10 most favorite albums? (at least, I think that's what I read on the front page)
Here's my answer♥:

01 Serial Experiments Lain - Cyberia Mix
02 鬼束ちひろ - Insomnia
03 浜崎あゆみ - Memorial Address
04 Rainie 楊丞琳 - 曖昧
05 大塚愛 - Love Jam
06 Perfume - GAME
07 S.H.E - Encore 安可
08 배슬기 - 배슬기 The 1st Volume
09 Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness - The Smashing Pumpkins
10 장나라 - Sweet Dream

Yay~ answering questions!!
Haha, I'm over at my friend Brian's house right now. We usually hang out and watch TV mondays. I'm a wee bit early tonight. Spent the day hanging out with Concon. Watched the first episode of Devil Beside You (惡魔在身邊) and it's adorable♥♥!!! I love it so much!! I'm really glad that I started watching it, because I've been wanting to watch a drama or something lately. Concon's going to be burning me Dr. Who, but this is something I can enjoy on my own. :3 Yay!

Ooh~! We went to go see Madagascar 2 yesterday with Nikky! That was totally fun!! Except that there were an obscene amount of children there. That was a little bit freaky. I can't stand how misbehaved other people's kids are. Gah.

I had American barbecue for the first time in a restaurant today. I mean, I've had it at friend's houses, and I've had Korean barbecue before, but I've never actually ordered barbecue from a restaurant. It was really good! I was surprised. Needless to say, due to my doctor's advice, I've been incorporating some meat into my diet a few times a week. Mostly just chicken and fish.

I had a three day weekend over Sat/Sun/and today. It was the first time I've had that since I quit my old job, and it's been pretty nice so far. I still need to go grocery shopping (probably will tomorrow). I've been relaxing and cleaning and drinking a lot of tea. I love tea♥.

Went to the mall with Desire, Lilly, and Concon seeking a tree for Desire's house. I saw Trey! :D Yay Trey! I miss you!!

Well, the guys are here and so TV-watching has begun. It's getting hard to concentrate on blogging, so...bye for now♥!

アパートの人生 / Apartment Living

2008-10-30T08:09:32Z

To all of the people who have been asking me, "How is apartment living?" here is a funny story for you♥!!

This evening, I went to Brian's house for movie night, and I didn't get home until around 01:30. When Chris dropped me off, I didn't see Alyne's car anywhere in the parking lot, so I figured she wasn't home yet. When I unlocked the door, I noticed that the apartment was kind of dirty (we've both been working a lot these past few days). So, I decided since her mom is coming over tomorrow with our couch, loveseat, and armchair, I'd surprise her and vaccuum the living room and hall areas and sweep the kitchen and wipe everything down so her mom would see it looking nice (Moms like that, right?).

Instead, once I finish the entryway and living room and make my way into the hallway, a very tired and confused Alyne opens her bedroom door!! I was really shocked!!

She asked what I was doing and I was so embarassed and mad at myself for waking her up (she has to get up really early!) that I just started apologizing over and over. She said it was ok, and I said I'd finish cleaning tomorrow. So, she went back to bed and I (quietly!) finished cleaning the kitchen so when her mom brings us the furniture tomorrow she'll see how nice we keep the place normally!

So, that's my embarassment for today!!

Oh! Yesterday, Connie and I went to Fairhope to find this record store (they sell vinyl albums and 45's!!) called Dr. Music. It was a grand adventure! Walking around that cute city reminded me so much of when Momoko and Ichigo are wandering around Daikanyama looking for the fabled embroiderer, Emma, in Shimotsuma Monogatari. We really are kind of polar opposites but it just works for us somehow.
It makes me happy♥.

Good Morning! 3:

2008-10-24T11:54:44Z

I am awake at this ungodly hour because I must work.

At least I get to watch the sunrise between customers.

It is currently blue outside. It's kind of cool.

I want to go back to bed. 3:

Bare Naturale Foundation: my favorite new gift!

2008-09-11T21:24:33Z

So, Nikky has recently begun giving me her other copy of her issues of Glamour magazine (for some reason she gets two of the same on every month), and the latest issue is really neato. I've gotten all these awesome ideas for minimal makeup (I HATE THAT MAKEUP TAKES TIME TO PUT ON, AMIRITE? But it's so pretty!.....T_T) and almost-no-effort hair and I'm really happy about this. Exacting even a small change like wearing my new mineral foundation (THANK YOU DESIREE!! YOU ARE LOVE!) with Strawberry-scented lip gloss and smudy eyeliner on the top lid really makes me feel more put-together and professional-looking, without being pointless (because makeup in the food industry really, really is. IT MELTS!), and yet also girly but not silly-pointless-girly. :D

I really like the way I look kind-of made up. I've done the makeup counter makeover @ both Clinique and Bobbi Brown's counters, and I definitely like Bobbi Brown's products better (NO ANIMAL TESTING, WOO!), plus they feel better on my face, but I really, really like mineral makeup better. It's much lighter and feels breatheable! This is very important for me, a person who sweats constantly due to being under fancy mood lighting and running around getting coffee drinks made for everyone and their grandmother. Anyway, Clinique made me have an allergic reaction (I KNOW, RIGHT? They're supposed to be the additive-free super awesome for all makeup!), so I stopped using their brand. Then I tried Bobbi Brown since we did a promo with them @ the local Belk recently, and while I LOVE all the skincare products, their makeup feels like a layer on my face. Even the tinted moisturizer isn't absorbed by my skin. It just sits there, and I press it in and do everything they told me and it felt that way even when they were putting it on me, so I know it's not my method being wrong.

Anyway, I think I'm going to check out more of L'oreal's Bare Naturale line. It's the closest thing to Bare Escentuals makeup I've ever tried, and it's NOT THAT EXPENSIVE!!! I've found when I buy department store makeup, I don't want to wear it daily. I want to save it for a special occasion, because it's expensive. Like china or a nice dress. If I buy the nicer drugstore brands, I end up actually wearing it. So, I ask you, what is the point of paying twice to three times as much for makeup that I'M NOT EVEN GOING TO WEAR?!

Exactly.

Recipe 001 || Light & Summery Vegetable Clear-broth Soup!

2008-09-09T01:14:19Z

I know I promised waaay earlier this year I'd start posting recipes, because I'm a highly experimental cook. So, to fulfill my promise, anything that doesn't turn out inedible, I'm going to perfect and post here for everyone to try, in case you get bored or hungry! Most of this will be vegetarian, and I'm going to try even making some vegan recipes.

Now, I have a love-hate relationship with cooking, and I'm really lazy, so expect most of these to be really, really easy and idiot-proof. I hope you like these, and if you try making anything, please comment the entry so I can know how everyone's turned out and whether or not I was specific enough, etc. Also, if you have any questions about these, let me know and I'll do my best to answer them!!

A few days ago, I ventured to the local grocery store (next time, I plan to do this with veg from the farmer's market) to pick up some vegetables and made this amazingly delicious soup!! All of the ingredients are really easy to find year-round if you don't shop in season, and it's amazingly light and ever-so-slightly salty.

Also, this is the first time I've ever tried to type up a recipe, so please please bear with me.

So, to make the stock you're going to need:
▹ Dashi Kombu, 1 piece, dried (this is a thick dried kelp you can get @ the Asian market or health food store.)
▹ Minced or Fresh Garlic, 1 clove worth (if you love garlic like I do, feel free to add more!)
▹ Salt, to taste (if you're trying to avoid salt, omit this. I only use a pinch.)
▹ MSG, a pinch (this stuff makes a WORLD of difference, but I can understand how some people might want to avoid it. You can get it in bags @ the Asian market. I only ever use a very, very small amount in cooking. It's also pretty much essential in Chinese cooking, from what I've learned.)
▹ Garlic powder, to taste (again, I like my food really, really garlicky. This is only if you want it, otherwise feel free to leave it out.)

For the stock, you're going to just take one piece of the dried kelp, and if you want to avoid salt, you can wash it under some cold running (I use filtered) water. Otherwise, plop that sucka in some water in a saucepan and bring it to a rolling boil. Once you've got that going, turn down the heat some so it stays boiling, but a little less rolling. Add in your minced (or fresh!) garlic and stir that around a bit (I use chopsticks to cook, you can use a wooden spoon or whatever. Just remember metal in hot water gets hot, so use something with a handle, alright?) Your kelp should be getting really seaweed-looking and droopy and free-floating. Once it gets there, go ahead and add a pinch of salt and MSG. Once the kelp is really loose and thin-looking, you can remove the saucepan from heat (leave the heat on, though!!) and take out your kombu. Stick it wherever you keep your organic waste. Congratulations, you now have an awesome, clear, catch-all vegetarian soup broth (actually, this is completely vegan.)!!

And for the actual soup, you'll need:
▹ Sugar Snap Peas, a handful (or whatever type of boil-ready bean/legume you enjoy. Shelled edamame/black beans work well, too.)
▹ Carrot, one regular-size cut into thin-ish slices (1/2") (or if you're creative, cut your carrots into flower shapes!)
▹ Sweet Bell Pepper/Green Pepper, cut in half and diced (you're only using half, so store the rest, or if you love bell peppers, use the whole thing!)
▹ White Onion, a few slices, diced (you can also use red onion or shallots for a sweeter taste!)
▹ Broccoli florets, one stalk's worth (broccoli is absolutely fantastic for you. Eat tons of it!)
▹ Mung Bean Sprouts, a handful (I use these in any soup because they're delicious and packed with nutrients. Also, be really careful with these, because if they get icky and not crisp, they can carry salmonella! EW!)
▹ Scallions/Green Onions, one onion, cut into thin slices

Once you have your vegetable stock prepared, go ahead and add your hardy vegetables first (the carrots, bell peppers, and broccoli, in that order) and allow them to boil in the stock for about one minute. Turn down your heat a bit (if you have numbers 1-10 on your stove, then about 6, otherwise between med and high, closer to med.) Add the peas and white onion and allow that to simmer for about a minute. Finally, you'll add the bean sprouts and green onions, allow the mixture to simmer for about four minutes on med-high heat, stirring occasionally. Here, you can go ahead and give it a taste (careful, it's hot!) and decide whether or not to add anything else, more salt, etc. Remember, you can always add extra seasonings if it's not enough. However, it's really difficult to balance out if you add too much at the beginning, so start small. After you add anything else you'd like in it, go ahead and serve while hot, or refrigerate in a tupperware container. This soups keeps about four days or so, depending on your ingredients.

Remember, you can always add more vegetables to this, or take away what you don't like. Here are some ideas for other fresh vegetables that would be delicious in this soup:
▹ Mushrooms (White, portobello, cremini, button, shiitake, the list goes on! Add these when you're adding the peas and white onions.)
▹ Sea Vegetables (I usually top this soup with some dried wakame, but seasoned nori would do in a pinch! Just be sure to add it last, because the nori will eventually dissolve if it's toasted.)
▹ Asparagus (This is really hardy, so add at the beginning when you're adding the carrots. This also happens to be one of my favorite vegetables.)
▹ String Beans/French Beans (I hate them, but you could use them instead of or in addition to the peas.)
▹ Napa Cabbage (This will get limp and gross really fast, so add it at the very end with the green onions and bean sprouts.)
▹ Tofu (I suppose you could also add meat, but I wouldn't know how to prepare it. Probably boil it separately until it's cooked then add it to the broth at the very beginning. For the tofu however, use extra firm silken tofu and cut it into cubes (in your hand works much better than on a cutting board, but be careful!) and add with the peas and white onions. And really, you could probably use seitan or textured vegetable protein, but I've never worked with either, so if you try it with those, let me know what you did!)
▹ Cauliflower (If you hate broccoli's mad flavor, you could try cauliflower instead. I'm not the biggest fan of cauliflower, but it could work if you really like the stuff. (I use A LOT of broccoli...))
▹ Taro Root (Again, never worked with this, but DO NOT EAT IT RAW!!! From what I've read, it should work really well peeled and chopped into thin (1/2" or so) discs.)
▹ Bamboo Shoots (Use fresh if you can get them, or canned in a pinch.)
▹ Water Chestnuts (I've never seen these fresh, so I always use canned. If I could find them fresh, I'd give you more details on how to use them.)
▹ Summer Squash/Zucchini (I'm a much bigger fan of these sauteed in olive oil, but you could make it work in this soup.)

I'm sure there's a million other vegetables you could use in this that would be delicious; it all just depends on your sense of taste. So, feel free to experiment and let me know what you find out or what you like if you altered the recipe at all when you tried it. I hope this brings you at least one delicious meal!

Y HALLO THAR, INTARNET.

2008-09-06T17:20:10Z

HELLO THERE!

Today I am actually moving all my furniture things!!!
Mom got a U-Haul and so now I can finally have important furniture (read: my bed!) so I have somewhere to sleep tonight and forever!! :D

AND I DISCOVERED I STILL HAD A CAN OF 蘋果西打 LEFT OVER FROM MY BDAY PRESENT FROM NIKKY (earendil_elven)!!!!

Oh joyous day.

I might even score free opera tickets before the day is out.
THAT would fucking rock!

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2008-09-04T23:30:58Z

I can tell I haven't gotten enough sleep lately, because I only have days like this when that is the case.

Today, I'm feeling really pathetic. Taking a look at my life, I'm realizing that all of my friends are accomplishing goals, and I still don't really have any goals. My big goal in life was always just to find love and be happy. I've never wished for a stressful life, and when I was little all I wanted was to be famous. Now that I'm older, I don't want that so much. Part of me still clings to the hope that one day I'll "make it big" and be a singer, but the more of my life I live, the more I realize just how outlandish that dream really is and how unrealistic I've been with myself.

I've always been hypercritical of myself (and others, but usually privately), always comparing myself to models/singers/movie stars and thinking "Oh, I'm not thin enough yet. Once I'm thin, then making it big will be more of a realistic goal for me." However, the more and more I try, and it seems the closer I get to really having some freedom and some nice equipment to play around with, the less I want to try. It's almost as if I'm afraid to even try because...

What if....this happened for me? What if I found out I was actually talented and that people (read: Jessica) aren't just telling me I'm a good singer to make me feel better and that it's actually true? Would that really be so scary?

Well, my answer is...yes. I've struggled internally with my self-worth for as long as I can remember. As far back as I can think about, it's always been "I'm ok. I know I have to be ok. I can't really be this terrible person that I feel I am." I'm trying to own up to my feelings more and more, and I hate to seem like I'm pointing the finger/placing blame upon someone else, but my dad is really the instigator of these kinds of feelings from what I can recall. I've always been afraid of him and what he thought of me. I'm not really sure why, but I never cared what my mom or siblings thought of me. My every move has always been trying to coax approval out of him. I guess I'm just one of those people who can't stand other people not liking them, and this realization bothers me very much.

But then, what frightens me even more is the realization that maybe I just live in a fantasy world and need to own up to what he's been telling me all these years - that I'm just ordinary. I'm not good enough to amount to anything he'll approve of, and perhaps I'm just meant to grow up, get married, pop out a few kids, and live my life anonymously and no one but my husband and children will care or miss me when I die. I can't deal with that.

Ever since I was little, I've always felt a little different from everyone else and I've never been able to pinpoint quite how I was different. In all honesty, I'm different from most people I know in nearly every way. I can't think of anything that I do or say that hasn't gotten a "that's weird." from someone I know. So, it's difficult for me to narrow it down when it seems to be everything.

I'm not quite sure why this has me so depressed today, but it does. I suppose I just figured I was a little more important in general than that.

What I mean by that is this: nearly all of my friends are off living their lives doing "adult" things like having big careers or graduating college or getting married or having babies or traveling abroad, and here I sit, no degree, no big-time career (but hey, on the upside, I LOVE my job), and none of those other things. This has never really bothered me, but at the same time, I feel as though I should be bothered by it, if that makes sense? Based on what others around me say when they have these sorts of feelings, I think that for someone my age, discovering you're being somewhat "left behind" like this should be accompanied with some form of panic and rushing out and doing something important, but the more I honestly think about it, the more I realize that although they seem to be doing big, dream-accomplishing things to me, but in their minds, it may only be a small step to where they want to be.

Also, while I have a few lofty dreams, I do still have the rest of my life to achieve them. I don't have to be done living my life by the time I'm 40. I'll be okay.

I really need to stop comparing myself to other people when I'm feeling down. It really only makes it much much worse.

People with Poisonous Personalities

2008-08-01T19:36:33Z

I dare you to say that three times fast.

Today, first thing when I get to work, I get a woman in my drive-thru that asks about caramel macchiatos. When I let her know that yes, we have them, and what sizes they come in and how much they are, she proceeded to order a caramel latte. Not the same thing. I repeat this back to her, "so one small caramel latte...that'll be (price)." She agrees, handing me the money. So when I finish it and hand her the drink, "here is your caramel latte, ma'am, you have a nice day and thank you for coming by!" I instead get a glare and the following:

Her: "..excuse me, did you say caramel latte? Because I ordered a caramel macchiato."

Me: "oh, I'm sorry. You said latte, so that's what I made, but I can remake it as a macchiato if that's what you meant. I'm sorry."

Her: "no, I ordered a macchiato. You made the wrong thing."

Me: "Ok, so you wanted a macchiato, I can fix it. Let me remake it, please."

So she throws the thing at me, nearly spilling 140-degree hot milk and espresso on me, and one of my employees remedies the situation because I'm so livid I can't think at the moment. I really, really hate people like that. I know what I heard, she knows what she said. Why people insist on playing these moronic games is beyond me.

This really isn't that important, but it got me thinking. Have you ever been at work, out shopping, at a restaurant, etc. and there's that one crazy person who acts really childish who really nearly ruins your experience by being a completely embarassing example of humanity? I mean, they're usually raising some gigantic stink about something minute, like the waiter forgot that you wanted extra cheese (or hasn't gotten to adding it yet), or the fact that the register didn't automatically detect the deal that was going on and the cashier is trying to perform the necessary overrides so this person can get the right price, but there they sit, bitching and moaning, raising a gigantic stink over absolutely nothing?

Don't those people realize that you're not the only person who feels embarassed and enraged by their spoiled, childish behavior? It has come to my recent attention that more than half the people exposed to their behavior look at these people and think "oh dear lord above, what the hell is THEIR problem?"

Well, I want to ask, what exactly IS their problem?, that they feel the need to take out whatever pent-up rage or childhood trauma they may have experienced on an innocent bystander like the cashier at the grocery or clothing store, or the person at the cosmetics counter, or the teller at the bank or credit union, or the person getting their coffee, or the fast-food manager, or the waiter/waitress, or the bartender? Why do people think that this kind of behavior in public is acceptable? Why do we, as a society and culture, propogate that this is alright by paying people more per hour to compensate the emotional trauma and abuse they're forced to take so that people can pay their mortgages and car notes and electric bills? Has it really come to this?

Having worked in both retail and food service for a combined three (coming up on four) years, it really pains me to see the people I and others have hired busting their butts to make their lives work, to make ends meet, while being forced to take abuse from the "upper" class - the housewives who go out spending their husbands money because they're bored (and the reverse of this!), the people whose parents make enough money (and have enough stowed away in mutual and trust funds) so that they'll never have to work a day in their lives, and so forth. Their behavior leads one to think that perhaps their lives are so easy (in comparison) that something as small as mistakenly ordering the wrong drink and being forced to ask for what they originally meant is such a blow to their ego that it just literally ruins their entire day. I hesitate to believe this, because we all, as humans, have things that pain us, that make our lives more difficult than others may perceive.

This thought brings me to one of the women whom I hired as my assistant manager when I was working for a major fashion jewelry retailer in the local mall. She was only four years older than me and had a husband in the military, a son whom she loved dearly, and had lost her only daughter (whom she had always dreamt of having) only a year ago at the date of her hire. This woman struggled every single day to come into work at a place that specialized in catering to little girls around the age her daughter would be had she not passed. She struggled every single day, watching the other young mothers and their daughters going through the phases of their childhood that she had dreamt about spending with her daughter right before her eyes. There were days when she would come to work crying, saying "I can't do this! I can't be around this! Everything here reminds me of her!" and since we only had three employees (and thusly were already extremely understaffed), I had to stand there and comfort her and tell her she was doing more than most women would in her situation and urge her to stay (mostly because after getting to know her through working with her, I knew it would be worse when she was at home alone, surrounded by her daughter's things, forced to deal with that silence on her own).

People who abuse retail and food service employees in any way do not have an inkling of the things some of us have been through. People do not choose to work in the mall professionally very often. None of us wish to be reminded of how much money we don't have to attend college (much less, the time that would take away from some of our families, etc.) so that we can "better" ourselves. Frankly, if acting the way these people do is "better," I am extremely satisfied where I am, in the "worse-off" category, and I will do everything I can to remain there, if that's what "better" means.

So, to all of the people out there who are kind to any of the employees you encounter in your days, even if none of us ever show it, we really appreciate you and your kindness, no matter how small. Even if we don't realize it until later, kindness is always, always appreciated. Because believe it or not, you're in the minority. Most people (especially nowdays) are asses to us.

Thank you.

BREAKING DAWN, WHUT?!

2008-08-01T06:11:22Z

OK, so I still haven't read Eclipse yet, but uummmmmmm♥♥♥

BD IS TONIGHT, BITCHEZZZ!

image by treetop_cherry.

Random

2008-07-28T17:47:20Z

It's weird that I keep finding parallels between the songs from Mamma Mia! and the events within New Moon/Twilight. It's kind of weirding me out.

Like right now, "The Winner Takes It All" is going through my head as I'm reading. Poor, poor Bella. I feel for her, I really do.

I'm borderline pathetic, I know...(-_-;)

I just finished reading Twilight, and...

2008-07-26T23:47:48Z

I think I'm going to cry. SO MANY QUESTIONSSS?!!?@!@?!?!@JSDHJKLDFHSJDHFLEUIWR&*OSHDFJSDHFUWEIRYOUI!!!!!!!!!!!

(T_T) at least I have New Moon as well.

FUCK I need to buy Eclipse now! New Moon won't last me very long!!! T_T

GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH

WHY DIDN'T EDWARD CHANGE BELLA?! WHY? WHYYYYYYY?! AND FUCK JACOB BLACK THAT KID NEEDS TO MIND HIS OWN BIZ. FUUUUUUUUUCCCCKKKKKK WHYDIDN'THEJUSTCHANGEHERFUCKI'DHAVEDONEIT!!!!!

(T_T) I'll never escape now. Twilight officially has my soul. *mourns*

Mamma Mia!

2008-07-26T04:37:21Z

Why, oh why did they let Pierce Brosnan sing?